i have no idea about the rest of the pple in my class!

and am feeling strangely zen about it, like it doesnt matter since you-know-who and you-know-whats are not in it for sure.

really apprehensive about the workload, since seniors have so many life horror stories to tell.

oh well, i'll take it as it comes i guess. packing and preparing for hall is like packing up to go away for a trip, like a holiday or something.

i buy many toiletries.

back from teletubby land

it all feels so surreal, all the things ive seen and the pple ive met. even all the things we've done. WE'RE ALL FINALLY IN ART SCHOOL, WTF. you know how you've always thought about and wanted something, you get it finally and start wondering if it was the right choice and expect shit to happen. something like that. FOC was pretty great, but with my voice gone, i cant say i came back in one piece. ive seen my share of interesting pple, though mostly not really in a good way. nevertheless, im glad i went, although being unable to speak kinda took away some of the fun. last week of the hols, and all i wna do is slack at home permanently. ah well. i know my new address! weirded out by the sudden changes in life. my bed feels so neat and CLEAN after camp+staying at a temporary bunk in hall 2, i feel like some sort of a person with an OCD for cleaniness and tidiness with my roommate over the past 4 days lol. and i predict that im gna be super anal with cleaning out our room in hall 6 when the time comes.

i dont know how proper GIRLS could live everyday otherwise, in a room with unwashed dishes and dust on every surface and yellowing sud-stains and hair-balls in the drains and water stains on the mirror and i-dont-know-what on the floor and sticky unknowns with random hairs from strangers accumulated in every single nook and cranny over the years of its use. eewww. its strange how i used to think nothing about it until ive really experienced it myself.

guys should really peep around in a girl's room when the owner is unaware before commenting on whether a random girl is cute or not. like seriously.

是谁说蓝色就等于忧伤

mayday wrote a song for a children's cartoon that came from 7-11, that's good enough for everyone, and so cute lol.

take a peep at open-chan here-OPEN

[/edit] curious as to how it sounds like? 

OPEN x 五月天『開天窗』 詞：阿信 曲：怪獸 一隻鯨魚 要怎麼放進冰箱 打開門 然後用力關冰箱 然後呢 如果你還想要 放一隻大象 一份希望 要怎麼放進心臟 如果你 活的有一點悲傷 答案是 用力丟掉鯨魚 用力甩悲傷 是誰說半夜不能吃便當 是誰說彩虹不能長頭上 是誰說藍色就等於憂傷 你看看天空和海洋 順風時就展開雙翅飛翔 逆風時 就當成 在衝浪 沒有風的時候那就讓我 開開天窗 一句歌詞 怎麼讓你很難忘 方文山 林夕和我都在想 想破頭 也鑽不進一個 緊閉的心房 一個難題 要用多少的智商 多少淚 還有多少的盼望 多少人 變成緊閉門窗 孤獨的國王 我是 open chan 快樂的一天 跟你一起 OPEN！ 喔喔喔喔！ 我是 open chan 快樂的一天 彩虹長在頭上！ 喔喔喔喔！ 在遇到困難，或是不順心的時候，就聽聽這首歌吧^^ 讓你和OPEN小將一樣擁有開心魔法，開開天窗、時時都保持愉快的心情~

in all WUT-ness

SHUN THE NON-BELIEVER!!!!! SHUUUUUUUUN SHHHHHUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

everyone's i me mine nowadays,

like i want this i want that im with this i think not i need money i want more time for myself i cant take it anymore i wish i could do something different. it kind of makes me sick, together with all the materialistic things i've been spending on lately. cute little megan(5) at kumon was so pleased and happy with her hello kitty mechanical pencil, she wanted to share it with everyone and kept looking at it during class. jarry(8?) likes the eraser chang bought for the kids so much, he uses it all the time and shows it to me when im there. i resolve to look at everything i have like how they do. and not just treasure leira and shino and view everything else that i have merely by their monetary value. and of course my dolls are not materialistic wants. it is as ludicrous as calling a hobby like tennis a materialistic want. its not a new year, but it seems resolutions have to be made. tommorrow im gna sit by my sis and coach her physics/chem. i did promise her that i would.

yesterday,

i just swore myself off buying dolls for the next 4 years. good luck to me.

i love my noisy music.

i love how it contradicts most everything else about me. they are so .... LOL. doesnt anybody mind the fact that their instruments and mic are not plugged into anything? the mic stand doesnt even have a BASE. been spending most of the afternoon on deviantart, looking through the favourites of the pple i favourite. some artists, i click on their page, with a few (four)thumbs from their gallery and dev id, and i watch them straightaway, without even looking at their stuff in detail. and i find myself having made the right decision. i even like their scraps a lot, and favourite their scraps. i wonder how long i have to work to be up to par, for pple to do the same for me.

memento mori

an extraordinary artist producing macabre/grotesque works in mindblowing detail. "Kris Kuksi sculpts macabre sculptures one might see in the bowels of Necropolis. The pieces are architecturally designed with deadly surreal features one might find described in Dante’s Inferno. Kris believes“not in the Devil but in demons in the mind that create the real Hell of mental anguish, suffering, and guilt which inevitably manifests the turmoil of humanity.” He builds each piece layer by layer, carving out a skeletal mixed media image and uses various “kitschy” stuff. His paintings are just as dark with chromatic shades and bold reds. His work has been compared to other horrific artists such as Geiger and Lovecraft, however, I think Kris holds a unique title for actually taking his nightmare visions off the canvas and into 3D form. His art is so detailed it would literally take you hours to view every inch of his one of his sculptures." --this site its not often that one sees such works in 3D, and wad gets me most is this: "Kris’s work leaves most in awe over the intricate composition. He does not model it in his head, nor does he sketch it out. Each eclectic piece emerges out of the seedy depths of his own mind leaving his audience to ponder their own demons" kinda reminds me of michaelangelo, only NO ONE can compare to michaelangelo because he carves from a solid block of marble. pro+anal, my favourite kind of artist =D his paintings and two-dimensional work, however, are hardly comment-worthy(=nothing much, by my expectations of great artists). check out his work HERE high resolution pics recommended!

cosfest

went to get the prints that i wanted for the second day, of course the deco pack that was limited was no longer there, but luckily this one still was.
Himmeltraum by =Toonikun on deviantART this is one of my favourites in the set of 5 it came in, i was so glad that it was still there that i dint think to talk to the artist OR ask for his AUTOGRAPH on the printsssss! URGH. ANYWAY. me and shich hung around a bit more for the competition, and after a while it just got =__= and sian so that we sort of just met shan, hung around a while for me to buy the paradise kiss postcard set and shich to ask about trigun, then we bolted out of there. turns out my sis's friend's friend's friend has an msd, that looked like a MNF woosoo from far, and the only woosoo i know of from sg cafe is Dietrich, so i therefore infer that that was crimson_cerberus. this was all inferred from the way they were standing, 3-4 metres away. LOL shan said: EVERYONE IN HERE HAS A DOLL! OMG. hanahana. call me gay la. wad about the rest of them. met yingjie there, just to say hi, and she looks so much happier wrapped in her bf. i always only recognise the dolls and not the doll owners, so i never call out or say hi to anybody, because, well, I DONT KNOW THEM. not really willing to join them anyway, because some sgcafe pple are so -__- anyway after that shich and i went to the hongkong cafe at E!hub at downtown east again, to eat and talk about our idols ( mostly hers, since HE WAS THERE AT THE CHALET OMG, spoil his own idol image, i laughed until my stomach got a workout) all the great artists there at the booths made us want to rent one next year to make some earnings out of prints =3 i dont draw MANGAMANGA per se, more like just illustration, but it would be cool. for once, i brought leira around and felt so at home, that it felt great with leira on one arm and shich's elbow in the other. we should have taken a pic, only the humans that take pics there were either 1) dressed up as some anime character or 2) dreesed up in loli/punk/wadever in between.

i went to my favourite stationery shop,

bought 3 expensive sketchbooks as catharsis, and calmed down. lesson learnt though. went to chang's to help out and hang around.

I LAMENT MY LACK OF FRIENDS.

so the prints from the pple on deviantART that i watch, that come in limited supply of 20+ sets, are almost surely gone by now because there is nobody to go down to cosfest with me today, and even my sis who was going to go down sooner or later refuses to go with me no matter how much i asked. i was so pissed at my own inability to HAVE MORE FRIENDS that i changed clothes at 1pm to get out and down there by myself, but even then I WAS SO PISSED AT THE STUPIDITY OF CHIONGING DOWN THERE TO DOWNTOWN EAST MYSELF, BUYING STUPID PRINTS THAT I WANT AND CHIONGING BACK FOR LUNCH AT HOME STRAIGHT that i took one step out my door and just changed my mind and came back in. i hadnt even locked the door yet. AND NOW IM BANGING ON MY KEYBOARD FEELING SO STUPID TO BE SO AFFECTED BY IT ALL AND JUST BOILING! FROM PURE RESENTMENT AT GOD KNOWS WHAT EXACTLY. FROM NOW ON, NO MORE ANTICIPATION. NO HOPE/DEPENDENCE ON FRIENDS/FAMILY= NO DISAPPOINTMENT. WHAT A GREAT CASE OF ANTISOCIALITY IM TURNING INTO. HURRAY FOR INDEPENDENCE MAN. I BET THESE ARE LIKE, THE LEGENDARY SIGNS OF MAJOR PMS.

i cant sleep.

figures.
houses by ~sleepyfeet on deviantART i wish i could draw with soul.

hotcakes for breakfast everyday!!!

thoroughly enjoyed rummaging through all blythe clothes and art supplies at orchard today with shich and hazel, although shich still looks weak from being diseased, after so long, lol. its like she screwed up her immunity system a lot, wonder if she'll be okay for fri's health checkup na. i dont think anyone else in the world buys boxes of yellowing white envelopes, except me and shich. better find a use for them... dint mess up much for kumon today, except that while packing homework for like, a few kids, i mixed up the maths with english. which is minor, considering the fact i pack more than a hundred kids' english, maths and chinese folders in 4 hrs, 20-50 sheets a folder, coupled with teaching them reading. yesterday's error of asking a girl to do working for long division is more disastrous, by kumon way of saying. i thank the senior teacher there sincerely every time she comes over with my error and asks me to correct it, and sometimes i think she's pissed that she has to do so, but is incredibly patient nonethewise because she is a small-kid-teacher. its a gift. i praised a boy today and wrote full marks on his reading card for his chinese oral(which is extremely rare, ive only done it this once, usually i give a half-egg, which means not perfect, or a poor or fair instead of good), and both him and the 'principal' were very surprised and pleased. she(principal) actually asked me wad i thought of his reading again to check wad i wrote. seeing chang's initials in her handwriting on the work record sheet, and having heard that she's going to leave for canberra on mon, actually makes me feel kinda lonely, like a part of my life that i always took for granted will disappear with the coming week. i love how we always call each other out to do stuff the day before or on the day itself, and trust each other to always be willing to accompany the other. we also always trust each other to synchronise to the meeting time, and catch each other on moving trains. we work alternate days at kumon, and i smile inside when i see her handwriting on the kids' handbooks, next to mine. its going to be sad to see her leave to live somewhere else, although its the best for her. of course. being entrusted with the task of mailing her stuff to her there actually makes me feel better. i tell the kids she's leaving, wondering if they feel the same loss. its hard to be left behind, and i know its harder for her, becauses she loses more.

new kid

my pullip prunella, Shino was drooling at her sales pics long time ago, but when i saw her at the toy+comic con on sat, i just had to get her. she's cute! will post pics up of her in her summery clothes set when i can find the stupid memory card adapter. YAY TO PENDING PRETTY BLYTHE CLOTHES! she stays in leira's cupboard/my bag because the family doesnt know about her yet. YAY TO EXTREME PORTABILITY. i can bring her EVERYWHERE. NO YELLOWING. lol still wanting a kid delf dreaming cherry though. maybe next year. see. what a darling. and as a plus, i managed to poison shich to get her veritas too SHICH HAS A DOLL! OMG. no prizes for guessing who pulled her over to the dark side XD