one conversation with shawn suddenly comes into mind, and i realise our age gap is not that big after all. my cousin is seven years older, i think. my mind draws a blank when i try and picture what i'ld be like in seven years.
sure, ive got my dreams.
somewhere at the back of my mind i'ld still like to believe in what i did, back in primary school. that a prince who loves me will come sweep me off my feet, and as long as im with him we will live happily ever after. =)
and then there are some despo pple, who seriously irk me, despite how much i can understand their anxiety.
i treasure the times now, where most of what i think about revolves around me, and those that are important to me. ive seen cases where it doesnt happen, even after pple find "their other half", and i think maybe thats the start of tragedy. of course im not saying that everyone should be self-centred all the time. i dont think caring for the pple who are important to you is an act of self-centredness.
after the juniors' graduating aep exhibition last week, i wondered if i am what i saw myself to be barely a few months ago. if the me from that point of time (that they are in now) would have approved of how im doing now.
the answer was a rather definite no. call me impatient and ambitious, but i was sure i wanted more than just this.
i'ld like to be someone who pushes on even harder in the face of setbacks.
thats not to say, however, that im gna like start to chiong ALL my assignments and email my lecturers regularly and do all my work with the fervent intentness to out-do the rest that drives a lot of the pple around us in the same year on.
i believe in my way.
its nothing that got to do with attitude, its just a way of doing things. im sure there's a better way of putting it across, but that's how i will do it for now, here.
clara would say its a matter of working smart. well, thats not exactly the thing im alluding to, but yeah. maybe.
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